March 3 2025: I need to get a life
It's just like the title says. It's only been a month since I quit, and already I'm pretty fucked up. I'm barely getting anything done, I'm practically drowning in hedonism and laziness, and my sleep schedule is beyond fucked up. I keep telling myself that I'll start applying for jobs as soon as I get my shit together, but the more that I tell myself that, the more I realize that I'm just procrastinating.
I need to get myslef together, and find something to do. I can't just wallow in my own filth and self-hatred forever. First things first, I need to fix my sleep schedule and get into shape. I don't want big muscles, or anything. Just slimming down will do. Next, I need to find either a job, or someplace to volunteer. Then I need to become financially stable enough to move out. I'll probably need to find a roommate first. That means that I gotta socialize more, both online and offline. I know I keep telling myself this, but I mean it this time. I can't keep living like this. It won't be easy, but that's exactly why I need to do this.